I want back my colourful world;

11 March 2007

i love my life

i spent my whole day of birthday turning 17 in school. got stuck in a camp. but despite that fact that i was alone expecting 17 in the midnight i got messages to wish me telling me that i am remembered. i remember most that hoo li was the 1st to wish me and that she sent me a long touching message. suprisingly wai called in the afternoon too. wai is not a big deal but the fact that he knows when my birthday after so long is a HUGE deal. haha

wai called and i was doing something so i missed the 1st call. quimby answered.then bie said was something important ask me to return call.

nie: hey u called zit?
wai: yea..happy birthday
nie: whoa...since when u remember my birthday? (i even forgot to say thank u..too shock)
wai: u think i wont remember zit?
nie: something like that lar..
wai: i treat u a meal someday when u're free
nie: i wont b shy then..thanks lots

all thanks to those who wish me and message too.
and i love jessy's earings. her pressie for M-E. it's blue and it's nice and it's handmade. and i'm the owner for it. muahahaha.
let's see. perhaps coz this year i knew that i was occupied on my birthday so i didnt spend time thinking how to spend my day.but i end up sweating for a whole day taking 2 almost 3 baths a day and 3 hours of sleep.
since i'm in school's camp i spend the my
1-4 am playing games and
5-6 am sleeping. then after breakfast and tai-chi, in between of preparing outdoor games. so then
9-12pm was the games then lunch.
1-4pm hang around joking and playing in 4 ruby.
4-8pm sweating in front of bbq pit. setting up fire and bbq-ing chicken and sosej and potatoes. 8-9.30pm rushing to serve food for teachers and rest besides myself.
9.30-11pm involved in campfire.
11.30 dozed off while waiting for the event to end so that i can clean up the place.
1am ppl woke me up. got a form4 girl was hyperventilating? and then i think i slept back all the way till 6 under the cloudy big sky counting stars accompanied by mosquitoes. real chun sleeping out of the tent. sooooo cooling and fun. i get the whole sky for myself. haha

somehow i realise that i grew from certain areas of mindset a lil too.
i learnt to let go of something i am holding on due to responsibilities and wat seniors might think about me. then i realise no one is there to share. all is there to judge and condemn. so i let to let kno. i did my best and i got no power to control the outcome and wat is to happen. i am answer-able to myself. i do not need to explain myself to others. when i let go onli i realise it had slowly took over alot of myself. i stress so much. i am so burdened.tired and sick of the whole thingy. occupied the time for myself. i had to force myself to wake up just to finish up my task but anyhow i am free.
btw, to love myself which is not a crime i got myself a new bag. yeay. and i shall get daddy to bring us to shogun. yummy yummy. it's totally right to demand on your birthday. no crime for tat too.
p/s to daddy: u better show some sincerity since u did not call to wish poor me on my birthday and do need to gv lame excuses to cover. give pressie-S to make it up. yes!

happy birthday to me and bie. and i'm older by one year.

Labels: birthdays

all vomited out at 8:20 PM