I want back my colourful world;

23 March 2007

i love my life

i had a long.tired day

i am not gonna fuss and complain any further wat happened to me today. but i am very thankful tat i went for the Basic Life seminar ytd and it really helped.

i am submitting everything b4 Him. fear.anger.tears.smiles.pride.ego.dignity.reputation.reasons.achievement.and all tat i have.
becoz all tat i own comes from Him.

without my permission, i realised ytd tat i got very bitter bcoz of her and tat she caused my unpleasant fears and anger in me. all these while i tot i was just merely complaining n fussing and being angry. buthen when all these are added up i became bitter.

i recognise that it is His will and He allows these to happen. it happens for a reason i yet to find out. and He will onli gives me the best and He protect His own and He loves me more than anyone do. she is just a tool of His so that His work in my life can be done.

so therefore, i will forgive bcoz God will not forgive me if i do not forgive. and that He commands us to love one another. besides i forgive her not for anyone else but for myself. by doing so i give myself a key to a better life and a happier life. besides i hope that the love of God can express itself through my actions.
it's nothing easy and i give all glory to the Lord for helping me to do so. i prayed so much today that He will help me to put myself together and not appear weak and vunerable before her and and make the fullest out of my lesson of suffering the God allows today. i find myself at great peace when i prayed and i submit b4 Him.

i am a normal human and tat every human fails. but He will never fails.

ps: i felt bad of complaining abt her in front of my friend. causing her a bad image and my frens to dislike her.
there's alwayz a limit of wat a human can do.
as much as i prayed and sincerely want to forgive her and choose to love her n bless her more but flesh didnt cooperate tat much in the beginning. whooops.

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all vomited out at 8:36 PM