I want back my colourful world;

13 April 2007

i love my life

i just wanna hang out and watch tv 24/7.
go out yam cha till late nite. ok at least b back b4 12am its not too much.
go fren's hse and chill.
shopping trips.
movie trips.
not doing anything but lying around my bed.
trying clothes and throwing them around without being borthered who cleans it.
play with my doggies.
online browsing n chatting

i wanna do all that without feeling guilty.
haih. mid year is so near and i am not prepared. with daddy's nagging everyday its really hard to to feel pressure. i kno he meant well but seriously when u're not ready its just sound awful to me. reminding how near is SPM and how NOT PREPARED I AM.arrrrggghhh
so i shud really start studying. mayb tmr. oppps with easter march i'll b tired. err start sunday.

mayb i am stressing myself too much o wat. i am feeling empty and bored. sometimes i cant even focus on wat i am doing and talking abt. i think my brains are going crazy.now i just cant wait to retire from prefect and most importantly st. john. then most prob i will have more time. besides i am lousy at both. and now i am being punished with silence by my 2 close frens and why? i have no idea.
my self confidense is drainin' off. doooown the drain.

i'll consider leaving sch and being a nun. it's suppose to be stress free. u dun have to care abt studies.wat others think.college. errr computers too i think. i mean it's a total stress free plus a healthy life. haha.
i need someone to knock me awake from crapping.

ps: i am and shall be prefectly fine. its just some emo spills tat i need to let out.
ice-cream and choc usually does the magic. if there's a possible shopping trip even better.haha

Labels: emo

all vomited out at 5:26 PM