i went qing meng with aunties and grandma. v visited my grandpa and 2nd uncle in nirvana. the last time i went was a long time ago, perhaps when i was still in primary. then the timing didnt allowed when i moved on to secondary school. so tis time i grabbed my camera with me.
i drove the "tour group" there *proud*
then sai yi and tai kau fu went and "seek permission to visit"
twice!!


uncle got joss sticks and scented red candles for "meal"

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tim's farewell was ytd. whoa time really flies. i knew him when i was std 4-5 and and tim will be moving on to uni. so fast kan?
i was writing the momento for tim in the farewell. it took me a while to phrase the whole thingy. as i was thinking, memories really came bursting in. the small brain just dont have the capasity for events of 6-7 years in a minute time.
anyway, thr was food and performance and fellowship ytd.
young and...
old performed. uncle eddie was looking at edwin when he sang " falling in love with you". TAT was funny.
i met jason thr too. after a year not seeing him i think. thru tim, i knew jason. haha. silly things happened. jason's mummy's bday was celebrated ytd too. btw, she is a very nice and friendly lady.

Labels: emo, laughters

{WARNING:it's a qnie fussing session post}

i started college last week. not easy.
pretty much of catching up to understand subjects ( all the leng chai-s tat are in sunway u will be appreciated ya soon when i can cope with studies) and making new friends.
i have been so comfortable with convent school and convent ppl tat i find it hard to get used to new place n new ppl. convent is NOW actually once my comfy zone now tat i realise.
mentioning about comfy zone, i realised i LOVE my mummy lots. i love home cook food. i love my pillow. i love my doggie. so mean time, the PLAN to actually stay out is temporary on hold/reconsider/postpone/cancel? and other words that means i am not staying outside and no intention to do so yet.
i'm having period now so pretty emo with moods. simply wanna fuss.
everyone (almost) are smart thr. i'm feeling tiny.

well i guess bad habits have to get rid off now.
*no more last minute studying.
*no more not doing homework
*no more feeling smart about myself

all these while i tot SPM was huge deal. it WAS but it is actually small deal compare to coll. last minute of cramp-ed studying will do for me for my SPM. and if u think surviving SPM means life will be smooth sailing. tat is a wrong idea. scratch tat and think again.

i'm simply over reacting.
ps: good changes for coll not exactly a bad thing rite? besides it just the start. ppl usually make lots of resolutions for a start

Labels: emo, yapping

warning: long emo post ahead

i gonna miss my class most. everyday v chat and talk. v think highly about ourselves and v make noise all the time. i still remember how quai corrects teachers and how v kutuk teachers behind. haih. those were the days.

we are the one tat do things together. separated into our own group of frens but yet stand together as a class whenever things arise. i no longer need to tolerate ai leng's endless nonsense chatter. no more sleeping in class and crappy jokes after PJ.

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okie.
i came back from auntie susan's chem tuition and i realise i am STILL DUMB

my results are kinda ~bad~ and tat i need to buck up

STRESS!

dear brain,
kindly push me to study more k?

Labels: emo

i just wanna hang out and watch tv 24/7.
go out yam cha till late nite. ok at least b back b4 12am its not too much.
go fren's hse and chill.
shopping trips.
movie trips.
not doing anything but lying around my bed.
trying clothes and throwing them around without being borthered who cleans it.
play with my doggies.
online browsing n chatting

i wanna do all that without feeling guilty.
haih. mid year is so near and i am not prepared. with daddy's nagging everyday its really hard to to feel pressure. i kno he meant well but seriously when u're not ready its just sound awful to me. reminding how near is SPM and how NOT PREPARED I AM.arrrrggghhh
so i shud really start studying. mayb tmr. oppps with easter march i'll b tired. err start sunday.

mayb i am stressing myself too much o wat. i am feeling empty and bored. sometimes i cant even focus on wat i am doing and talking abt. i think my brains are going crazy.now i just cant wait to retire from prefect and most importantly st. john. then most prob i will have more time. besides i am lousy at both. and now i am being punished with silence by my 2 close frens and why? i have no idea.
my self confidense is drainin' off. doooown the drain.

i'll consider leaving sch and being a nun. it's suppose to be stress free. u dun have to care abt studies.wat others think.college. errr computers too i think. i mean it's a total stress free plus a healthy life. haha.
i need someone to knock me awake from crapping.

ps: i am and shall be prefectly fine. its just some emo spills tat i need to let out.
ice-cream and choc usually does the magic. if there's a possible shopping trip even better.haha

Labels: emo

shall u expect a sentence such as " I LOVE HOLIDAYS" from me now? answer is yes. being a lazy bum myself i really need and love the holidays i get. besides school is made horrible when some certain teacher can't help but to make my life miserable.

monday...
woke up and daddy drove us down to timesquare.shopping? ah-bo..tat's an almost instant relieve for my bad week in school. then i went to plaza low yat for lunch and sg. wang to another shopping session. i bought :-
*a ring
*a pair of shorts
*nail polish
*princess hour dvd ( it's gonna make my holidays so much more fun)

bie went for a hair cut. something like a cut marathon by kimarie academy and it's for CHARITY. eventho the cut was bad and the result is saddening but it's for charity bie. she made us laugh so badly tat mummy had tears in her eyes. v can onli say it's for charity and tat hair will grow back even tho bie didnt look very tat better but tat's the best from us. haha

tuesday...
slept till 11. or was it 1? neways did chores and watched princess hour non stop till 7 something in the evening. head out for aunt susan chemistry tuition. came back and ta-da in front of the tv AGAIN. tat seriously pissed daddy off. got to kno reuben had an asthma attack when he is running in Labuan. he missed tuition too since he just got back to kajang. poor him. msg-ed him. actually wanted to tease him but he felt kinda bad so spare u for now lar...

wednesday...
woke up at 12. whoa i really love the sleeps. i mean i can hardly sleep tat much if not bcoz of the holidays. i am irritated by the alarm every morning for school and mind u i am still stuck in st johns which occupied my saturdays. and chores in the morning on sundays. so i really appreciate the sleeps. did chores. and lying around and dozed off at 2 and woke up for physics tuition at 3. popped by to get yoong and he slept as much as me. so i am not the onli pig. hehe. came back hang around and lepak at home.

thursday...
ish ish. got up at 7. coz mr leong suppose to pick me up at 7.30 for driving amali class but he came at 8+. *do u hv any idea how much at sleep means to me?* ish. then went for that class which is sooooooooooo boring. in there for 3 whole miserable-cant-talk-nor-sleep hour. then break and practical. where v learnt to change tyre and check engine. for a min i felt like i'm a pro. haha. but the fella who taught us was practical enuf. he didnt make US change the type. he said no point coz it's hot and gals dun have much strength. (is tat an insult?) but thinking tat i dun have to make myself dirty so i just leave tat matter away from my not-very-working-and-sleeping brains. he even said gals can get help to change tyre much easier than guys. wat does tat suppose to mean? hmmm. got home at 5 and Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

friday...
yeay yeay. gonna go out. went for add maths tuition as early as 8 then after tat back home for breakfast and daddy drove me to midv. watched 300 and lunch at nando's then another movie. bridge to teribathia. pardon me if i got the wrong spelling. meet up with yoong n nicki and bid farerwell to zen. mind was thinking. but stomach was hungry too. went to fish manhatan for dinner. starbucks for coffee. hang around and went home. rushed to get home for music practise but train was real full tat cant even push one more in so v missed the train and camwhore sitting in the station. bie msg said it was ok not to go. joel said so. how bad i felt. so went home and pretend to study so tat daddy wont make noise when he is back from CG.

saturday...
dragged myself to wake up. knowing tat i will b scolded but still i have to wake up. i hate dragging myself doing something tat will onli spoil my day for the sake of a word - responsibility.
during breakfast, dugong told us to just deaf our ears for tat lil while. wat is to happen has to happen. haih. early in the morning and i have to bear all these. went for the meeting. waited till i get it. when i tot i am just gonna b spared tis time i got a big blow. not a chance to defend at all. not like its my fault but wat to do. i'm just a student which they can blow on. haih. went for a very emotional eating with bie n hoo li. went secret recipe and took a piece of cheese cake each. when i almost calmed myself down. dugong n shinshin came. brought up the matter and tat's just too much. things became emo.not blaming them. not a tiny bit of their fault. it's just me being emo and things are bad on me. went rocteam for a whole jug/mug/bottle/cup watever tat container called of watermelon juice. then mummy came to pick me home. slept. woke up for cell. as usual it opened me to a point of view tat i really need to ease my negative feelings.
it's cbout submission. submit to God. duh. and to parents.spiritual leaders. and God human-channeled people such as teachers who are in authority. it's hard for me to submit to someone whom hurt me so much in the past and yet obeying her and plastering a smile each time. the hurting haven stop and yet i need to submit. jessy also said it's harder to submit when u disagree. tat's so true. but yet submitting when u disagree is a bigger challenge and pleases God. Jesus submit even His life for GOd told him to. it's a sign of maturity in action too when v submit. when it something pleases GOd, wat is tat lil hurt of mine compared to His goodness?
then went for dinner when shinshin. dugong.kevin.bie and even qcie. shinshin said i looked happy. i guess after wat he saw in the morning he was confused with my emotions. buthen i just realise tat i alwayz found the peace i need when i seek GOd. so y shud i b sad?

sunday..
church. sermon by pastor ni hau. sorry for the spelling error. he is just funny. hilarious.blogging now and suppose to study for exams tomorrow. tata

Labels: emo, laughters, shopping

dunno y i am real down n low n bla bla bla now...brain did its thinking without my permission...ish ish gonna fire tis brain soon...can i?

then gv kzen a call at 11.00 p.m...didnt answer..was kinda hmmmm its ok lor...a lil disappointed...
at 1.00 a.m...was lying.tossing around my bed suddenly bie's fon rang and kzen asked for me...die lor coz bie fussed n complain tat its tat call tat she woke up n bla bla bla...eh..ur sis is down act lk u're concern can ah?
altho its a short call to return mine but who cares...its my lowest moment of the month o year...watever...
somehow tat's a meaningful call to me...at least i am entertained...i used to wonder whether when i am down it is tat obvious coz he used to call at the very right time whenever i am kinda down...hmmm....
oh yah...btw his frens are interesting...since he is staying over in fren's hse...normal frens will tease him...they are f-u-n-n-y...wheee...~~~



*big time credit goes to kzen n his background frens*

Labels: emo

i'm queenie
i'm have limited brain cells so i don't do complicated thinking much
i love love love God
i love love to SMILE
i love food which always means EAT too
i love colours. for cloths.stuff and belongings
i am big addict for taiwan/korean/tvb/singaporean series
i'm my mummy's spoilt girl

pretty content with life.
how about more food but yet wont get me fatter?.
needed to have more clothes.

~ nicki ~
~ lene ~
~ elaine ~
~ sam sam ~
~ debbie ~
~ shanti ~
~ eunice ~
~ mei ling ~
~ celeste ~
~ eric & jessy ~
~ victor ~
~ quai ~
~ manda ~
~ lee lian ~
~ marvin ~
~ melissa ~
~ timo ~
~ kelly ~